This morning was so frustrated after having the phone conversation with the mgr...Alone at client, nobody to have lunch with, had coaching session with the Partner yesterday nite in office, the more i listen, the more i dunno...i think i m not hardworking enough, i should buy an audit text book, like wat he said, i should be master of what i m doing...dun like my attitude recently, go work late, demotivated, no um in doing watever thing, not using enough brain to think, not asking any sharp questions to client when understanding controls, like the associate, ask so much questions, didn't even give chance to client to talk, always stop client's sentence, i think this is rude, but who knows, mayb boss think tat this is bravo, little boy, u got to learn how to listen to ppl...
by the way, dun like ppl look at me and laugh, as if want me to agree with u what u said earlier is correct, when some1 else is talking, dun like to work with ppl who talk too much, it's a waste of time arguing between two idiots, when the mgr say no u have to do also, unless the partner say yes...
yea, alone at client, then i start dreaming...
how i wish i m in the flight, flying to uk, attending my best friend's convo...how i wish....will continue my dream tonite...zzzzZZZZZ....
I think i m addicted to FB, so, i m now stopping myself from surfing that website for a week, today is the 4th day, my plan is a week...or shd i make it longer, until it doesn't form part of my life...
although this is the 4th day, i m still having the tendency to click on the blue "f" icon in the quicklink...
start to realise that this is a problem when i start up my laptop everytime, FB is the first website i visit...no, this shd not be the way...i can do it, i can quit FB...
Today is my mami bday for Chinese calendar, her Ang Mo bday is 10 Nov, so it is not too late to wish her yet...we had dinner at a vegetarian restaurant in Kepong, i m so full now...
At first was thinking to have one table, juz the 7 office clerks and 3 of us, after that it become two tables, wanna include uncle and aunties, these few days, after papa and mama discussion, in the end it becomes 4 tables. 1 table for papa's karaoke friends, 1 table for office clerks and mama's praying friends, 1 table for workers, xiao jiu and si yi zhang, 1 table for mama's primary and secondary schoolmates...
Can see that she is very happy, i was quite worry that i couldn't make it tonite since the mgr and partner intend to pay a visit to client's place...they are now still at karaoke, never join them bcoz predicted that they are going to sing all those oldies...Enjoy the nite la...
By the way, can't wait for mama to come back and open her presents...
ok. I owe u this. It's not tat I dun wanna tell u how I feel about you juz now, juz tat I am not prepared for it, dunno wat to say, and I'm not so good in expressing myself in word, although quite bad in writing as well, but it gives me more time to think...
u know why i suddenly said tat u r smart, bcoz ytd some1 told me tat u r prizewinner, n i check out from the website, walau eh!!! haha, can u leave your brain here, i have not grabbed enough yet.
of course if u ask me, i will sure say i enjoy working with u, since u treat me so well :) other than need to work, chap si for others, i basically luv spending time with u...tat's why i dun really mind to work late, weekends. For me the team is much more important than anything else in an engagement...However, u can't be treating each and every of your staff like how u treat me right, or u r actually doing so, so mayb u need to find some way to make people feel happy to work with u, willing to work hard for u...
one very good thing about u is u r willing to talk, to share...and i can feel your sincerity, tat's why i share a lot with u as well, which i dun normally do with some1 i juz knew.
oh no, u r a perfectionist, i really beh tahan those perfectionist, why make your life so kang ko...sometimes have to let go...relax a bit...by the way, how can a perfectionist's car be tat messy? how can your windscreen be so blur? faster change wiper la or change the whole car :P
From the bottom of my heart, I m glad to know u. Wish u have a new start next next week, everything goes smooth, take good care and good luck...spend more time with Mr J after divorce with PwC...dun marry to your work again...I am in support of people who bravely make decision for their future...
u will be shock if u have seen how messy my room is...it is almost a month without a maid...Kamini went back to Indonesia on beginning of Sep, ended her 2 years and 10 months life staying with us...I have no time to buy anything for her, so decided to give her a RM500 ang pau the night before, pass to my mum when she's asleep, when i come back from work late night. Had been working late, weekdays, weekends for the past few weeks, it turns better this week since I am on course...
Ever since Kamini left, my mum is taking over her role... cooking - not really, i have not been having dinner at home for the past few weeks, she has not been cooking as well, since nobody is eating at home, until the past Tuesday, she cooked for the first time after Kamini's left...wow, that was the greatest duck soup i ever had, although it's at 12am...i have been praising her from the first mouth till i finish the bowl, same goes to papa, he also 'o lo' mama, and said wanna come back for dinner starting 1 Oct, which all of us know he just say say only...even he comes back, nobody will cook for him also...haha
ironing - she is ironing everyday, as if the there is unfinisheded shirts and pants to be ironed...i helped her once...the one and only time...
nobody fold my blanket for me...at night, it looks exactly the same as the morning...
a bit worry, another stranger going to come, dunno from Vietnam or where, one of the country there...will we have communication problem? what language does she speak? everything need to teach again, does she knows how to cook? she dunno my preference...
After 2 years, finally I had my career break for a month...Wow...it's pay day...how great it is when u r not working but yet still get paid...haha Singapore was my first stop...been spending a lot there...got a Seiko watch for myself, Wii (which has become my best companion during this holiday) and a pair of sport shoe...That's all...my 1 month salary is gone...I have not really start shopping yet, no clothes, no bag, no heels YET.... 2nd stop was Penang, followed by second day back fr Spore...Mum and I drove back to Sg Besar before departing to Penang... Our day started by having breakfast at Nam Tai cafe, it doesn't attract me at all until Snowy mentioned abt it...we both had egg toast + kopi o...undeniable, they are perfect match and yummy...My dad's motor shop was juz few doors next to it, I dun remember abt having egg toast here but yes for 'oriental style chicken chop'...but so sayang, the auntie said it's not in their menu anymore... We went to Teluk Intan first then stop at Ipoh for lunch...Poh Yien treated us the famous beansprout chicken as lunch...not bad, i m able to drive till pasir panjang police station... We continue our journey to Penang after tat... Dad failed to keep his promise...never join us in Penang, din get chance to go Koh Samui as planned...Mummy was the happiest there, meeting her sisters and brother...have breakfast, lunch and dinner with them most of the time... The night before leaving Penang, we drove to Teluk Bahang looking for durian...End of buying 2 durians and 20 mangoesteen, we had our fruits dinner at the seaside...it was so filling... We are back to KL after one week in Penang...
"Nessun dorma! Nessun dorma! Tu pure, o Principessa, nella tua fredda stanza, guardi le stelle che tremano d'amore, e di speranza!"
(English translation: "None shall sleep! None shall sleep! Even you, O Princess, in your cold bedroom, watch the stars that tremble with love and with hope!")
"Ma il mio mistero è chiuso in me; il nome mio nessun saprà! No, No! Sulla tua bocca lo dirò quando la luce splenderà!"
("But my secret is hidden within me; none will know my name! No, no! On your mouth I will say it when the light shines!")
"Ed il mio bacio scioglierà il silenzio che ti fa mia!"
("And my kiss will dissolve the silence that makes you mine!")
"Il nome suo nessun saprà... E noi dovrem, ahimè, morir, morir!"
("No one will know his name... and we will have to, alas, die, die!")
Is this a good news? mayb, from the $$ perspective. Actually I am not ready for that, or refuse to be ready to turn senior. Heavier responsibilities and more stress come along with the title. n I am always questioning myself, will I be able to go through it? Is this wat I want? Would this mean that I will be suffering from my migrain more frequent after this? CAREER...this word does not mean too much to me yet, at least at this moment. I got no vision here, got no great plan here...never plan for it and not prepare for it yet... feel bad for batchmates who are not being promoted this round, sense their disappointment, but I can do nothing for them, it's beyond my discretion. i just wish that the situation won't be that "kekok" when we meet for next gathering...feeling sad can't join them for tmr sing k though, have to work like cow here...better sleep now...i still owe somebody sth...
